When people talk about distorted body image, usually it's that people
think they are fatter than they are. I have the opposite problem. Every
time I see a photo of myself, I am amazed — I definitely don't feel as
fat as I look. I guess in some ways that is a good thing. I don't let my
fatness dictate what I do, or how I behave in social situations for the
most part.
But the denial also keeps me from fixing
the problem. It is one thing to deny what you see in the mirror— it's a
whole other issue when you see medical results on paper. Until recently,
even technically 110 pounds overweight, I looked pretty good on paper.
Good blood pressure, good cholesterol, good fitness level. There is a
point, however, when even the toughest body starts breaking. It turns
out, I am one step away from diabetes.
So now, I have to take the journey. I no longer have choices. Come along for the ride.
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